The Best Years of My Life?
Posted in Uncategorized on October 31st, 2006Oh boy. I’ve done myself in now. I got myself an account on Facebook. Finnish universities have nothing of the kind, and I doubt it would take off anyway.
More than regretting putting a load of information about myself online I somehow regret flicking through the profiles of a few old schoolmates from years back. Seeing their names and faces brought a ton of memories back, but that’s not what I want to talk about (yet).
The heartbreaking thing is that most of these people have graduated already. They’re either grad students or in employment, whizzing around the globe to meet each other. I’m 23 and still (or rather, again) where they were four or five years ago. I’m doing the things they’ve already done. I feel like the odd man out, because I’m doing a second bachelor’s. The friends I have in school now are letting go for the first time, experiencing the awesomeness of being in University. Looking at them, I feel I never had that – the freedom, the unwavering hope in the future, the chance to network and connect.
I don’t want to be the odd man out. I don’t want to feel like I don’t belong. I want to go wild and enjoy my time, as these years aren’t coming back and I sure as hell am not getting younger. I just don’t know if I can ever get back into the loop. All I can do is try.
Do, or do not. There is no try. So I better Do.